UC tomorrow.

i'm kind of glad i haven't picked (thus far) a creative field of work. Sure the work i'll be doing if i continue my scientific endeavors requires creativity but the nature of the work itself is much more discovery than creation. I'll always have to make stuff though. the act of creating has become a primary mode of expressing what i struggle to verbalize. the reason i'd have such a hard time as an artsy professional is that, as of now, making music or art is a relatively safe place, away from criticism. If i did it for a job i couldn't take the judgement; the earning of my bread depends on whether or not people liked what i had made. which i guess is alot of jobs but in this case it's judgement of personal expression. i can always increase my performing and composing skills but that original idea is still there to be scrutinized. my skin just isn't thick enough. plus i'm pretty stoked to get my feet wet in doing real science this summer. i love da universe. the structure of the physical world so vast and complex and i'd rather spend my time thinking about that (or cutting grass for that matter) than to muddle around in my own fodder.